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              'What's che  matter,  Nick?  Don't you  want to  shake hands   along the stone. Then I walked down to che beach  and lay  011
            with me?'                                                  the sand.
              'No. You know  what I thinlc of  you.'                      Most of the big houses along the shore wcre closed now for
              'You're crazy, Nick.'                                     the winter, and  were in darkness; there was only the shadowy,
              'Tom, what did you say to Wilson that afternoon?'        moving  light  of  a  ferryboat  across  che  water. And  as  the
              He stared at me  without a word, and I knew I had gucssed   moon rose higher, the houses slowly  began to melt away, until
            right about those missing hours.                           I  became  aware  of  che  old  island  underneath. Sailors  from
              'I told him the truth,' he said. 'He carne to our house while   Holland  were the first to set eyes  011 the island; to them it was
            we were packing our  bags. He  was crazy enough to  kili me if   a fresh green breast of  che new  world. For a passing,  magical
           I hadn't told him  who  owned che car.  What if  I did tell him?   moment,  they had che last and greatest  of  ali human dreams,
           That man threw dust into your eyes just like he did in Daisy's,   holding their breath in the presence of this new continent, face
           but he was a tough one. He ran over Myrt!e like you'd run over   to  face for the  last  time  in  history  with so  great  a  cause for
           a dog, and never even stopped his car. By  God, it was awful!'   wonder.
             There was nothing I could say, except che one tbing that was   And as I lay there, thinking about the old, unknown world,
           impossible to say - that it wasn't true.                    I thougbt of  Gatsby's wonder when he first saw the green light
             I couldn't forgive him or like him, bue I saw that he thought   at the end  of  Daisy's  dock.  He had  come a long  way  to  chis
           he  had  good  reasons for  what  he  had  done. It  was  ali  very   blue  lawn, and his  dream  must have  seemecl  so  close to  him.
           careless  and  confused.  T h ey  were careless  people,  Tom  and   He did not know  that  it  was  already  behind him,  somewhere
           Daisy - they smashed up things, and then wenc back into their   back in the enormous shadows bcyond the city, where the dark
           money or their huge carelessness, or  whatever it was that kept   fields rolled on under the night.
           them together, and !et other people pick up the pieces ...    Gatsby believed in the green light, thc future that year  by
             I shook hands  with him; it seemed silly not to. Then he went   year moves further away  from  us.  lt escaped us then, but that
           into  a  jewelry  store  to  buy  a  pearl  necklace  or  perhaps  just   doesn't matter - tomorrow  we  will run faster, stretch out our
           sorne buttons, rid of my small-town moral judgements for ever.   arms further ... And one fine morning ...
                                                                         So  we  beat  on,  boats  against  the  current,  carried  back
           Gatsby's  house  was still empty  when I  left - the grass  011  his   ceaselessly into the past.
           Jawn had  grown  as long  as  mine. On the last  night,  witb  my
           cases packed and my car  sold, I went over and looked at that
                                       O
           huge failure of  a house once  more.  n   the white steps a rude
           word, written by sorne  boy  with  a piece of  brick, stood out
           clearly in the moonlight, and I rubbed it out, drawing my shoe
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